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It’s been a year since my last Wolf post on here. Work has kept me very busy and stressed, but I’ve been on sick leave for a while with instructions to relax, and so fandom talk it is.

I’m still really into Honey/Molina and it’s given me a big creative boost and motivation to post stuff. I made myself a little icon to go along with the theme on here, too:

The fandom is still pretty small, but I get huge kick out of every time someone interacts with my Wolf content, because it means there’s still other people who care about the show and that makes me super happy to know. Things move so quickly these days.

Speaking of active fandom, there’s a new fanfic on AO3 too, Back Into The Fold by Bellatrix_Wannabe_89. It’s only one chapter so far but I’m already obsessed any hyped to see where it’ll go.

I actually recently published my first 10k word long fanfiction and while it was a struggle to get that far and I’m not super fond of the end result, I’m still proud I finished it at all. The scenes and pacing I had planned would have probably needed 30k to flow properly, but I gave up on that when writing started to feel too much like homework and cut the fat where I could. I think I’m just not built for long form writing like this, haha.

I also wrote two other short Honey/Molina things, one last year and one right after publishing Rubber Band. They’re on AO3, too:

And then today I posted my first fanmix. I’d never made one before and it’s quite the fun project. I deliberately didn’t seek out new music and chose songs from my personal library. I’ve posted it on AO3 and here on DW as well.

Originally posted on my MFC account.

Hiya 👋🏽 I finished customizing my first figure a couple of weeks ago and wanted to document a few of my thoughts here.

Back in March, I wrote a post about having trouble writing fanfic, but slowly getting used to it. I’m still chipping away at the fics I was talking about, which are all just about 1k words short (or less). However, this week I also finished my third fic for BBC’s Wolf! The first one I finished at the start of August, and the second two weeks ago. They’re all very short, only around 1 to 2k words each, but I’m still shocked I managed to finalize any of them. It’s probably a testament to how much I like the Honey/Molina dynamic.

They’re not exactly great works of literature, but I am proud of myself for drafting, revising, and wrapping them up in 6 weeks. I haven’t been able to put that many words of fiction to paper since… man, since at least a decade ago.

I have one more idea that might make a fun short for me to write, as well as one that would actually require me to do some in-depth plotting, which would be an interesting challenge as I haven’t done that in years.

I do need to focus on some life stuff for now, so those will have to wait. I’m also feeling a bit self-conscious about simultaneously clogging up #bbc wolf on Tumblr with my GIFs and taking up 75% of the AO3 tag with my fics, so that’d hit two birds with one stone.

Oh, and lest I forget: You would not believe how hyped I was when I saw that someone else had posted a ficlet for Wolf. I enjoyed The Monster In My Bed so much I went back and did another couple of revisions for Garbage Disposal that I think it really benefited from. So please, do check out TMIMB by colisahotnorthernmess on AO3.

A few days ago, I received an email about my remaining LiveJournal account’s anniversary. I never actually posted anything on there, just used it to join communities and comment, but the email did give me the idea of trying out Dreamwidth. I don’t know anyone one here, but I’ve always felt that joining a social media site is actually the most fun when no one there knows you exist.

It’s the joy of having no eyes on you and being able to be totally cringe and free. I would switch from service to service, as I wasn’t old enough to pay for hosting my own website yet, enjoying the freedom until I’d eventually end up with a few regular readers and suddenly feel the pressure to perform a more presentable version of myself.

I had my mainstay socials of course. Animexx and DeviantArt had features I enjoyed, and more importantly, were where all the artists I liked were, and I did make some nice acquaintances on there and enjoyed the culture and community. Then there was Tumblr, where I got my fandom and theming fix, but never interacted besides talking in the tags (my favorite part of Tumblr culture to this day).

I recently stared posting on Tumblr, and I can feel the pressure building up again. Now I am here and looking forward to enjoying some peace and quiet. I’m feeling nostalgic already, just looking at the interface of the post editor, and let me tell you, any website where you can disable comments is a friend of mine, hahaha.

Thanks for reading, and for not reading, too. ☆⌒(ゝ。∂)