One must imagine Ramsay twinkified, out of spite.

Sometimes I get myself overwhelmed by the most nonsensical things. For some reason, my brain will file certain enjoyable activities under responsibilities it needs to fear and avoid, which is also why I will sometimes drop off the face of the earth for friends, family, and the various online communities I haunt. Last year wasn’t a good one for me mental health wise and a lot of nice things fell under the radar, but life is slowly improving and I’m trying to pick up where I left off.

That brings me to Honey, Honey by slimeaudit.

This fic has been in my backlog for months because I wanted to be able to… feel joy again, I guess, before I read it. Yesterday, I decided, was the day and goddamn I feel like reading it last December would have cured my depression instantly. Okay, maybe that’s a bit much, but oh my god, does it hit the spot. Honey/Molina is honestly the luckiest rarepair ship I’ve ever had because while we only have a few fics I’m blessed by the density of in-character, well-written stories that also match a ton of my headcanons/personal fanon. How amazing is that?

I ended up spamming a bunch of half-coherent comments under Honey, Honey that I hope won’t bother the author and I’m honestly frustrated with myself for depriving myself of it for almost a year. Although, if I’m realistic I really wasn’t in the right headspace to truly enjoy it like I do now and part of the frustration comes from not having been able to express my appreciation to the author when they posted their fics—oh yeah, plural. I don’t even know if they’re still around or interested in the ship.

The sucky part about tiny fandoms is that great stuff flies under the radar and doesn’t get the attention it deserves.

Well now I’ve made myself sad, lol. Anyways, you shoud read slimeaudit’s Wolf fics, because they are very good and will not make you sad.

I slipped this guy into the Rainbow Pass-It-On with one hour left to spare on the timer (and a visitor due any minute), which means I hit the 16 icon limit. Yay for spam! 🙌🏽 FYI, number 15 was an icon of Xie Xing, the 10k Escape Plans gyaru leopard, so I even managed to do an icon related to figure collecting. Yay for organized hoarding! 🙌🏽

Thing is though… I have to make a confession. A confession of stolen valor, because I… am not a Dragonball fan.

In fact, I have never seen a single episode or read a single chapter. My knowledge of this seminal multimedia work is entirely based on pop culture osmosis.

I am a fraud. A swindler. A disgrace.

In all seriousness though, I always feel awkward about making pop culture references I’m not directly familiar with, but the pull of a bad joke just waiting to be made is simply too strong for me to resist. I was so mad when I googled “goku super saiyajin” and saw he already had a Bunsen burner form—turns out this dude has more power up levels than a Winx Club fairy, my god—meaning I didn’t have to/wouldn’t get to give him a shitty bucket fill dye job anymore.

I kind of wish I’d deep-fried Goku a bit more; looking at him with fresh eyes makes me think he does not have enough sharpening artefacts.

Back in March, I wrote a post about having trouble writing fanfic, but slowly getting used to it. I’m still chipping away at the fics I was talking about, which are all just about 1k words short (or less). However, this week I also finished my third fic for BBC’s Wolf! The first one I finished at the start of August, and the second two weeks ago. They’re all very short, only around 1 to 2k words each, but I’m still shocked I managed to finalize any of them. It’s probably a testament to how much I like the Honey/Molina dynamic.

They’re not exactly great works of literature, but I am proud of myself for drafting, revising, and wrapping them up in 6 weeks. I haven’t been able to put that many words of fiction to paper since… man, since at least a decade ago.

I have one more idea that might make a fun short for me to write, as well as one that would actually require me to do some in-depth plotting, which would be an interesting challenge as I haven’t done that in years.

I do need to focus on some life stuff for now, so those will have to wait. I’m also feeling a bit self-conscious about simultaneously clogging up #bbc wolf on Tumblr with my GIFs and taking up 75% of the AO3 tag with my fics, so that’d hit two birds with one stone.

Oh, and lest I forget: You would not believe how hyped I was when I saw that someone else had posted a ficlet for Wolf. I enjoyed The Monster In My Bed so much I went back and did another couple of revisions for Garbage Disposal that I think it really benefited from. So please, do check out TMIMB by colisahotnorthernmess on AO3.

A few days ago, I received an email about my remaining LiveJournal account’s anniversary. I never actually posted anything on there, just used it to join communities and comment, but the email did give me the idea of trying out Dreamwidth. I don’t know anyone one here, but I’ve always felt that joining a social media site is actually the most fun when no one there knows you exist.

It’s the joy of having no eyes on you and being able to be totally cringe and free. I would switch from service to service, as I wasn’t old enough to pay for hosting my own website yet, enjoying the freedom until I’d eventually end up with a few regular readers and suddenly feel the pressure to perform a more presentable version of myself.

I had my mainstay socials of course. Animexx and DeviantArt had features I enjoyed, and more importantly, were where all the artists I liked were, and I did make some nice acquaintances on there and enjoyed the culture and community. Then there was Tumblr, where I got my fandom and theming fix, but never interacted besides talking in the tags (my favorite part of Tumblr culture to this day).

I recently stared posting on Tumblr, and I can feel the pressure building up again. Now I am here and looking forward to enjoying some peace and quiet. I’m feeling nostalgic already, just looking at the interface of the post editor, and let me tell you, any website where you can disable comments is a friend of mine, hahaha.

Thanks for reading, and for not reading, too. ☆⌒(ゝ。∂)